Thursday, June 11, 2009

It's official

My babies are no longer babies, actually they haven't been babies in a looooong time, but today it hit me really hard, my children are growing up right before my eyes and it is happening way too quickly for my liking.
This morning was the Awards and Graduation ceremony for Ben, he's no longer in elementary school, he is now a middle school er. As the reality hit me that come August, Victoria will be a senior in H/S, Ben will be a Freshman in Middle school and Reagan will be off to kindergarten,the tears starting pricking the back of my eyes, the lump formed in my throat and my nostrils started flaring a little as I fought back the tears that wanted to fall.
I feel so blessed to have 3 wonderful healthy children who are growing and doing all that they should be doing at these ages, but at the same time I find myself mourning the little ones they once were. When I wave Reagan off to school on that first day of kindergarten it will be the first time in 17 years that I won't have a child at home with me during the day. Thinking about it gives me a sense of both emptiness and fulfillment, I've done my job and I've done it well, now it's onto the next chapter, I'll always be their Mom, but now I need to reinvent Penny, wonder who she turns out to being, hmmmm ;-)


jaybird said...

go get' Burnt Toast' by Teri Hatcher and read it... my mom did once we were all gone... i know it is a new step but i'm sure you'll adjust and eventually enjoy the new time you find to do things for yourself!

Trish said...

Penny I teared up reading that! I can relate I am sure I will be the same way when Adam goes to Kindergarten next Sept. {{HUGS}}

Kat's Credence said...

I had a moment just last night, watching John & Bran talk about a video game, just watching Bran standing in front of John, carrying himself more mature than I can fathom for the little guy who blessed my life 10 years ago! Now only 3 more years and he'll be graduating! Considering how fast the past 10 went, those 3 are going to fly by much too quickly!

Anonymous said...

When Becca climbed on the bus for pre-K I bawled. So this year, I thought "no bbie, it's just a full day instead of half..." WRONG. I bawled harder! I'll probably still be crying til middle school.
Why can't they still little longer?

Karin Schueller said...

Oh goodness, I am so there with you. Haley will be the oldest in her school this year, and then she's off to junior high. Ouch. :( I'm trying really hard to be okay with it, lol. My baby will be in 3rd grade. He's half way through elementary school!!!!!!

Okay, that's not helping, lol. Thanks for the video, that was really cool. I'm looking forward to meeting this new Penny though. ;)

And thanks for the heads up on my link, lol. ;)

Bean said...

you're tagged!! check my blog for info :)

I'm looking forward to reading the next Chapter of Penny, btw - the past 8 years have been good! I can't imagine this next phase would be any less interesting or exciting <3

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